How can it possibly be 2012? I don't know if I was ready. I am not one to make resolutions, but I am continually in a state of making goals and revamping them. I will say 2011 in hindsight ended up being a year with many challenges.
* I changed jobs in nursing to one where I feel very fulfilled and it also has a scheduled that allows me to be a better mom. It still requires complex scheduling and help from others, but ultimately I have been less tired and overextended which makes for a better me. Learning a new job and new way of doing things have been a challenge. Thankfully I finally am starting to feel settled.
* I have been very conflicted about returning to school and even though I keep wanting to God seems to have other purposes for me and it hasn't panned out yet.
* I decided on a dare really from my husband to take up running again. He actually started with me and lasted a whole three weeks. I really think he just tapped into my competitive nature and got me started and he really knew once I lit the fire I would go. I am still not fast, but I completed my first 5k after not running in many, many years. I started around Labor day and have run 3 days per week most every single week since then. I actually started my 12 week program over at a faster speed to try to improve. I really, really want to completed a marathon. Shhh...don't tell anybody, but I really think I can do it. I have my mind set on a target date/time and I will keep it posted if if comes up in the near decade. I think running is a difficult thing to do even when done slowly. I have been somewhat disappointed that I have not lost "one red pound" as I like to say, but really that is my own fault because I have not changed my eating habits - at all. I know if I get serious about doing distance running I must change my fuel. That just may work if i start really training. Time will tell.
* My FIL and very dear neighbor had bypass surgery in the fall. Reality of taking care of the importance of taking care of my health.
* This paying off debt thing is really hard. We have really been on lock down and done without so many things. I am hoping 2012 is the year of a positive turn around because I am so very tired of not having any money to do anything. We are blessed to have a roof over our head and electricity, but some time you work and work and want to just do more than get by. I hope this will be our year. We have sacrificed for a long time to get here.
*Family is the ultimate most important thing on earth. I want to keep making memories and cherish time together.
* My spiritual life is a bit of a work in progress. I am able to do my devotions of most days and pray continually, but I want us to have a permanent church home. I pray we will find our place and build relationships and be involved in more activities. If you read this please consider praying for all these things for our family.
* I tried to take even the smallest opportunities to take care of myself. It is hard for me. I like to take care of others and honestly I am pretty low maintenance and have low self confidence. I have tried to paint my nails more. It seems like a little thing, but I am a nervous nellie and I will pick and pick if they are not painted and I have never had long nails. Simple things like this and burning candles that I enjoy are just a couple of ways I have tried to take care of myself with a limited budget.
*Blogging has not been as easy for me. I have been in a rut with meals and trying to be healthy, quick, cost effective, and pleasing to everyone is hard. I have had hard time trying to manage my time and keeping the house going. I really wish I could hire a housekeeper so I could come home and just be off, but it is as likely as winning the lottery at this point. My standards have had to be lowered somewhat and hopefully I will improve in this area this year.
I wanted to get my thoughts written down in hopes it will help me establish my goals for 2012. Wish me luck!
P.S. Remember time FLIES!!!! Make the most of it!!!